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“I THINK THAT                                                                                                                        What a great question. In a way, this whole
                I recently got the chance to sit down with my brother                                                                                                                               thing has made me trust my body less.
                through social distancing and ask him about his latest   CANCER IS THE                                                                                                              When I first met my oncologist, he told me
                project.                                                                                                                                                                            that my tumor had been growing for years,
                                                               STORY OF HOPE.                                                                                                                       but I had only been showing symptoms for
                Anneclaire: You wrote a book!                                                                                                                                                       six weeks before I had surgery. That made
                                                                                                                                                                                                    me so mad. How could it not have told
                Davey: I did! Well, I started writing a blog when I got   HOW COULD IT                                                                                                              me sooner? When I have a cold my body
                diagnosed, and people seemed to like it. So I have taken                                                                                                                            coughs and sneezes, basically shuts down.
                some of those blogs and essays and other writings I’ve   NOT BE?”                                                                                                                   But with a tumor in my large intestine—
                done during this crazy time and that has become Hope in                                                                                                                             something that can kill me—I get nothing
                the Time of Chemo.                             –David Lee Nelson                                                                                                                    until the very end?

                I find it so interesting and inspiring that you put the                                                                                                                             Another thing happened early in my
                word “hope” in the title of a book about cancer. In fact,                                                                                                                           treatment—I met a guy my age and he
                it’s the first word you use. Why was that important to   In order to truly feel hope, you have to recognize the                                                                     had stage 4 colon cancer as well. He was
                you, and how have you been able to cultivate hope   fear and danger on the other side. This isn’t limited to                                                                        on treatment #11. I bombarded him with
                during this time?                              cancer and other health issues. I’m sure you see it in                                                                               questions, and one of the things he told me
                                                               your world all the time. It’s scary to start a new workout                                                                           was that he tried to exercise every day that
                I think that cancer is the story of hope. How could it not   routine! It takes guts to get up early and to do virtual                                                               he could. Even if he felt horrible and could
                be? When we get it, the first thing we do is hope it goes   classes and meet with a trainer. When people face that                                                                  only muster a trip to the mailbox.
                away. That’s why we show up for the infusions and the   fear, when they throw off the covers of their super comfy
                trials and the tests. That’s why we deal with the fatigue   bed, when they put on gym clothes and start to work out                                                                 I took that to heart and have been very
                and the side effects and the scans and all the other joyful   despite having every reason not to—that’s hope! They’re                                                               physically active. I’ve run, I’ve done hot
                things that come when you attempt to fix these mutated   facing the fear and doing it anyway. That’s what I tried                                                                   yoga, I’ve walked, I’ve stretched. It’s
                cells with minds of their own. But I also think that hope   to do. With the massive help of my wife, Jaimie, and my                                                                 helped both physically and psychologically.
                can be a dangerous word. We have to be careful with it.   family and friends, of course. You all helped me trust the                                                                There is one thing though—I listen to my
                                                               idea that when fear knocks and faith answers, nothing is                                                                             body. I am gentle with myself. There were
                Why is that?                                   ever there. No matter how big the fear. That’s what I’ve                                                                             times during treatment when I could run
                                                               tried ever so imperfectly to bring to my treatment, to                                                                               six miles a day. There were times when I
                I think it’s counterproductive when people glibly throw   bring to the book.                                                                                                        could do hot yoga five times a week. Then
                around the word without honoring the fear, the very                                                                                                                                 there were times when all I could do was
                real fear that is on the other side. “You just have to have   I’ve noticed that you’ve chosen to face your diagnosis                                                                walk down my stairs. So please let your
                hope!” OK, but what does that mean when my cells are   artistically. How has your art shaped your view of what                                                                      body be your guide.
                trying to kill me?                             has happened?                                                               People often think that if you are laughing at something
                                                                                                                                           that you are somehow taking it less seriously. I don’t   How do you stay present in the moment, and also plan
                                                               I’ve never been more thankful to be a writer during                         think that is the case at all. How many times in life do   for the future? How do you measure success?
                                                               this time. I started the blog as a way for people to keep                   people laugh in the middle of crying. Or vice versa?
                                                               track of what was happening—so I wouldn’t have to tell                                                                    When my surgeon, Dr. Carla Haack, which can we ad-
                                                               the same story over and over again. But then people                         Also, think about why people laugh. We laugh to break   mit is a slightly unfortunate name for a surgeon? When
                                                               started reading it every day and following it, so it gave                   tension. What is more tense than cancer? We also laugh   she first broke the news, she said two things. She said,
                                                               me a platform to try to make sense of this thing that was                   when we recognize a shared experience. Unfortunately,   “Anyone can get hit by a bus at any time.” And then she
                                                               dropped into my lap. Thinking about it artistically also                    cancer is a very shared experience. Comedy and trag-  said, “It’s not the time we have, it’s what we do with that
                                                               gave everything a frame. Bad news became less scary,                        edy are simply two sides of the same coin, and often   time.”
                                                               because now it was just something more dramatic to                          laughter is our last line of defense against things we are
                                                               write about.                                                                unequipped to handle.                         That was exactly what I needed to hear at that time.
                                                                                                                                                                                         None of us know what is coming next—which is thrilling,
                                                               One of the things people love about the book is how                         So I think the book is funny because it is an unflinching   and horrifying, and human. It’s the one thing all of us
                                                               funny it is. Like, it’s really funny. Why have you chosen                   look at a tense, shared experience that I and everyone   have in common. If that’s the case, then there’s only one
                                                               to use humor as a way to explore this diagnosis?                            who gets it is unequipped to handle.          way to measure success, and that is one day at a time. If
                                                                                                                                                                                         I stay in the moment, then I’m not worried about the fu-
                                                               Well, the first 10 years of my writing life was as a stand-                 One of my mottos as a trainer is “Move a muscle,   ture. If I’m not worried about the future, I’m not worried
                                                               up comedian, so looking for the humor in whatever I’m                       change a thought.” How have you used your body   about the disease or what I can and cannot do. I’m as
                                                               going through is deeply embedded in my process.                             during this time of healing? Has your relationship with   here as anyone else. Sounds pretty successful to me.
                                                                                                                                           your body changed?
                                                               I also think there is a deep misconception about humor.



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